I want to run away.
Why does ordinary have to be reality?
I wish I were insane.
Logical thoughts hold me back.
Why do I have to be a good kid?
It would be so much easier
If I didn't care.
I wish I didn't care.
I want to run away
But everything holds me back.
I can only escape
Into the grotto of my mind
But it's lonely up there.
I want to share it with you.
Should I share it?
Please be my escape.
Can we run away together
Right where we are?
Anxiety
I want to scream
Everything is impossible
I want to be it all
But I'm nothing
Just drowning
Running out of time
Can't keep myself in line
I need to hold on
But I'm falling apart
Maybe I should let go
But I don't know where to start
And it kills me to be like this
Writing another depressing poem
About everything and nothing
Seemingly real problems
That don’t exist
But I need to get it out
Sometimes I want to run away
But the person I really need to escape is me
I could leave it all behind
To have a great adventure
But I'd still be by myself
My thoughts wheeling faster
I just want to go
But I know I won't
Why am I such a good kid
Why do I have to care about others’ feelings
Why do I have to feel my own
I need an escape
I used to find it in my mind
But now everything is so tangled
I’d get lost up there
I guess I'll just keep going
On this rocky path
I'll work until I am everything I want to be
It might be the wrong mentality
But determination can't hurt
If I'm already broken
I'll keep pursuing my dreams
And try to enjoy the journey
Even when it feels like the earth
Is swallowing me
I can't run away
But maybe I can fly to new heights
Someday
